aji
2009-03-25 11:26 p.m.
i effectively got 2nd for AJ idol, based on a tipoff by a good friend in student council who did the vote counting.
but seeing as there is no second place or runner up, that means i effectively got nothing.
but oh well ainesh won fair and square with the mask dance.
i didnt even get the medal and the hamper all the finalists got because i was being talent scouted by one of the judges when they were giving it out, and naturally everything had disappeared by the time i was back.
(but of course i would prefer the namecard over anything. but still. it would be nice to have chocolate right about NOW.)
this is usually where i would post the video but seeing as i havent got it yet (josephine, u took 1 second of film at the front and 2 seconds at the back) i will post it slightly later.
i will instead talk more about the experience itself!
which was made fantastic by my class who came in our bright orange class tee, had light sticks, made a banner and cheered like anything.
it was the first time i had such staunch and unyielding support and it was really really great. im not one to get mushy but i probably would have died without them there.
as it was i had to really fight against the nerves because i had learned first-hand that this competition brought out anxiety-related stage fright health issues in me that i never thought i would experience: feeling like fainting during my lunchtime performance and almost throwing up during the full dress rehearsal.
and when i noticed my hand shaking when i was applying makeup i decided that enough was enough, took josephine's advice and totally bitchified myself.
(ok her advice was actually for me to just let go and try to enjoy myself but i couldnt do that without becoming a bit arrogant and self-obsessed first.)
it was easy enough to do, to just set aside any inhibitions, stick my earphones in and pretend i was the queen of the world. i practiced in the holding room, in the toilet, backstage, and everywhere in between, completely ignoring anyone and everyone else (and the remarks the AVA guys made which they seemed to think i couldnt hear).
so i got through the performance relatively ok, with my bitch persona strong enough one of the judges said she liked my expression.
though she wasnt thrilled with the bottle pop choreo.
but oh well you cant have it all.
next up, the groove competition at west coast plaza.
somehow i dont think that will turn out so well either.
