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2013-03-28 2:48 p.m.
its times like these where im glad i have a blog.
not just because im bored - though i am now, and it does help to engage myself writing something of real essence - but also because its still nice to be able to have a domain to figure my thoughts out by putting it down in writing.
why don't i just write in a journal then, you ask?
well for some reason ive always had a feeling that someone - nosy annoying sister, perhaps - would go snooping in my room and just read whatever notebook they can find.
so i tried to always lock my journals up but hardy har har i end up losing the key or forgetting the code or whatever else required to open the damn thing again and all my deep inspirational writing is lost.
therefore i write online! where i'd never have to worry about...security?
the irony of the situation. im finding the world web wide, where anyone who types this particular url will be able to see everything i write, more secure than a small journal kept in some obscure part of my room.
sometimes the most dangerous place is the safest, i suppose. why would anyone assume i would write anything interesting on this dead blog from yesteryear?
anyway. back to the point which i have far digressed for.
what did i come here to write about again?
right. about figuring things out!
well actually there isn't really much to figure out. its all very simple.
its time to move on from here!
here being this situation, this place, this current arrangement.
its been a nice, comfortable set-up thus far - not the best, but comfortable anyway - but now the arrangement is expiring and its time to move on.
which is...hopefully for the better!
we won't be able to know until it happens - isn't that annoying??? - but staying isn't really an option anymore
:(
so move we shall.
but we aren't happy about not being able to foresee what's going to happen after the move.
just so much...uncertainty!
and we are high uncertainty-avoidance people, if anything.
but we have a plan (that will have to adapt according to the situation) and a goal and a mission and so we just have to make it happen.
there are so many potential possibilities for an even better situation but yet so many possible points of tripping up too.
we just dont want to let ANYTHING stop us or slow us down from achieving our ultimate goal.
but reality dictates that some things have to give way in order for other things to come in :(
but we will strive! for the all-round perfect ultimate goal!
where we can dance as much as we want at the kind of level that we want yet have enough money to buy what we want and live the kind of life we want, in the country that we like with people that we like.
easy much?
just a matter of determination, hard work and discipline.
and of course plenty of luck.
but all that is in the future.
for now, we're still stuck in this little office (for TEN MORE WEEKS) doing shit, trapped in this country that has less and less to offer, stuck in an in-between situation where we have neither this nor that.
at least its just for 10 more weeks, not for the rest of my life.
let there be changeeeeee.
