blah life
2009-05-12 11:58 p.m.
i realize what a terrible bore my life has become!
its just school, tests, tutorials and whatnot everyday.
the only highlight of my week is going to xen.
and i only do that twice a week.
plus i get the slightly nagging feeling that im not really wanted there sometimes.
(then when i get home i remember that i havent paid the fees for quite a while and tentacles of guilt eat away at me till i resolve to pay the very next time i go, but seeing as there is always a 3-4 day gap in between the days i go i always end up forgetting anyway and the whole guilt trip starts all over again.)
its a tiring cycle, especially when half the time you wonder if you're only there by association and not by your own merits.
which makes not paying fees an even bigger crime.
argh i really do need to get around to paying those pesky fees.
(which is another problem altogether, because the only reason i have parental permission in going is because said parents have not had to pay a single cent. so costs will have to be self-absorbed.)
maybe it would make life a lot easier if i just stopped going, or went once a week like dionne.
sheesh. how frustrating.
