lousy stomach flu
2010-06-17 12:04 a.m.
today i went to the doctor's and amongst the many weird and annoying things that happened there i realized when i had to go on the weighing scale that i had somehow reverted back to my sec 2 weight.
whether its because i havent eaten properly in the past 2 days because of this stupid stomach flu or its been like that for a while already, i have no idea.
but i actually thought i'd have gained a lot since ive been going to xen regularly and usually that means i'd put on muscle weight.
its quite sad, rly, where the weight has disappeared to.
i totally despise being called skinny. i want PROPORTIONATE not skinny.
but now whenever i try to eat i stop 1/4 of the way because i'd feel like puking if i go any further.
it actually pains me to see the food but not be able to eat it but having had two painful puking sessions already im now starting to see food as my enemy rather than dear dear friend.
STOMACH flu is the worse kind of flu for ppl who like to pig out.
another weird/annoying thing that happened when i went to the clinic was the suspicious-eyed look i got from the doctor.
its annoying that whenever girls say they feel nauseous ppl jump to the most ludicrous conclusions FIRST and then consider the realistic ones later.
'nausea, hmmmm. when was your last period?'
'i dont rmb.'
'last month maybe?'
'maybe, i dont rmb.'
'mid may? end may?'
'REALLY dont rmb.'
'hm. *squinty eyed look*. just that i need to consider the possibility of pregnancy...'
'no possibility.'
'aah ok. hmmm how about any history of...eating disorders?'
like, sheeeeesh.
if i were rly bulimic i wouldnt go to the doctor's and claim nausea, would i.
its very irritating when you're already headachy and uncomfortable sitting there waiting impatiently for the miracle pills that will cure it all and the doctor keeps asking stupid questions.
sigh but now is rly the worst time on earth to be sick because the xen perf is coming up.
and me and dionne somehow ended up doing 8 items.
its totally exhausting so i dont know how im going to do it when i have to huff and puff just to get up the stairs, like an old lady.
argh.
just kill me now.
